I also work in a large financial company and I can agree with a lot of what's been written already. There is an expectation that you just get on with it and don't complain. In reality I think this is garbage. The people who get their own way are the ones that make a noise. If you don't ask you don't get. So what if you are the new boy, they gave you the job on the basis you could do it. No boss liks to be embarrassed, so either they misunderstand the pressure you are under and think you are handling it fine, or they are taking the piss and the projects are not that important to them, they just want to see how hard they can work you. Either way its up to you to tell them the situation in an honest and professional way. They'll respect you more for it. Don't end up being the scapegoat if it fails. I've been in a similar position in the past where I lay awake at night stressed about workload. I used to wake up at 3am with cold sweats, was bad tempered, drank and smoked too much, and complained about work and life at every opportunity. Looking back i can't believe I got myself into a situation that was so unhealthy. Don't do it. Talk to the boss, tell him what's what. This will take some weight off your shoulders. Going it alone and taking responsibility for stuff that you can't reasonably do is what's killing you. I escaped by resigning and taking some time off to think about things. I was lucky enough to have a job to go back to, which I eventually took up. After the time off I saw things with more perspective and vowed never to take it that seriously any more. Now I still get a little stressed at work, especially when working to tight deadlines or dealing with difficult clients but I'm damned if I'm going to think about it after I leave the office cos it just doesn't matter. At the end of the day, you or I or anyone of us could refuse to ever go back to our office, and the world would still turn, the company won't go bankrupt and you'd still be alive. Ask yourself whether the CEO lays awake at night worrying about your project. More likely they are thinking about how to rape your company for a massive payoff when their screwups get found out. Once you realise this its easier to do your job, take your money and get on with your own life. Its just a job. |